When things get real hard and a series of unfortunate events pile on one after another, go ahead to vent or cry or whatever method of expression. Take the time given the situation. Sometimes you may only have a few minutes and your kids need you. In those situations if you feel you need more than a few minutes maybe it’s a good idea to call for help. Not everyone has help but if you do I suggest you take full advantage of it.

Some days all I need is a few long sighs, sometimes after a long day of battles as I lay down to reflect on the day a good cry makes me feel better. However crying makes my eyes all puffy the next morning, so I try not to do that anymore. I’m not going to lie, I worry about his future a lot. Will he be independent enough to go to school next year, will he make any friends at school, will there be bullies to make him feel sad, how will he communicate this to me when he is non verbal, will he be able to find a job, drive a car, cook on his own, find a girlfriend and get married, the list does go on and on. I know the same questions could be asked of a child without autism.

All these uncertainty that comes with autism it is hard not to worry. I’m coming to terms with the uncertainty and taking it a day at a time. I count my blessings on good days and know bad days will not last forever. I’m grateful I have a sweet beautiful child who’s smile is so contagious it warms my heart and make the battles worth it. Whatever challenges we face now and will face later will be battles we will overcome. I often think my real bad days might be someone’s good day. There is always someone out there who has it much worse than me. For that, I am thankful.

Life is complicated. Learn to be happy right now as otherwise time will fly you by. I am ecstatic my child kisses me and lets me hold him once in a while. He is getting big but I am still able to cradle him like a baby and those moments I will forever cherish. He will be forever my baby no matter what age he is.


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