How is my 6 years old so sweet

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My Sunday funday was full of love and a tad bit of tears. J was getting up from his nap so he was laying there and his big brother Mase joined him shortly after. I was full on expecting J to be annoyed that his brother is right next to him but he didn’t seem to mind at all. J started speaking “his language” and Mase turned to his dad and said “I wish I have autism so I can communicate with my J”. My hubby replied, we want your brother to speak so he can communicate with all of us. Isn’t that a better wish? As I heard this a few minutes after, I couldn’t hold back a tear or two as it was just a sweet moment. To hear how much my older one wishes to communicate with his brother is both sweet and sad. It is inevitable that growing up with an autism sibling has its challenges. Being non verbal is not just hard on my son and us as parents but also for his brother. Mase desperately want to communicate and play with his brother but most of the time, it is a one way street. I need to implement what I learned in Hanan’s more than words so Mase can understand that communication doesn’t need to be with words.  Gestures is a form of communication too. No doubt it’s harder and many times, a guess and guess again game but at least there’s some clue […]

To my 5 year old son, Mase

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Thank you my love for being who you are. You are truly such a wonderful child  and such a delight to be  around. I love your sassy demeanour and your outgoing attitude. You are funny, gentle, smart, brave, kind, loving and simply just perfect. I couldn’t ask for a better child and you have no idea how much I love you. Words truly cannot express the love I have for you and your siblings. You are way more mature than your age when it comes to responsibilities and things you know.  You are honestly the best brother ever. Not only are you gentle with your brother and sister, you are so understanding and caring. When we found out your brother has autism, we started teaching you what autism was and without even telling you that’s what JB has you were able to make the connection yourself. I was shocked one day to hear you say oh it’s because JB has autism. Your brother has been always difficult but before your sister was born at least you had the one on one time with either mommy or daddy. After your sister was born, the attention had to be divided once again. Jealousy is defiantly a factor and I suppose it is inevitable with more siblings. When I see it loud and clear, I feel bad that I’m not able to give you more. You have no idea how much it hurts me knowing that you felt left out. Some days it is […]