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To my 3 year old son JB

Despite how hard it is raising you, I want to thank you for making me a better person. You brought out strength I never knew I had, patient I can only dreamed of having, love that is deeper than the ocean, sympathy that I feel humbled I have. You have given me so much and for that I am grateful. You have turned me into a human I’m proud to be. Words cannot express how thankful I am to have you in my life. I want you to look back at this letter and know that you made me a better person.

The hardest part about your autism is me thinking you are in some kind of pain and I have no idea how to help you. I absolutely hate hearing you bawl your eyes out and hate it even more when you hurt yourself when you are frustrated. If mommy can take that all away, she will without any hesitation. Deciding to have you, your brother and sister will forever be one of the best decisions in my life. The joy you bring in my life out-weighs the challenges, you have no idea how much I love you.

Yes, autism comes with lots of challenges and the struggle is real, but with it, you have taught me true unconditional love. You will always be my baby boy and I will always be there for you. No matter how hard the road will get you will always have my shoulders to lean on to trek through together. You showed m a whole new meaning of what love is.

It is crazy how I can’t call you my 2 year old anymore because your now 3. I still recall being pregnant with you and now you are 3. I want you to know I am extremely proud of all the accomplishments you made so far. I have come to realize that time goes by too fast and so I will try very hard to enjoy you at 3 years old because you only stay so little for so long. Mommy truly loves you to the moon and back and moon and back forever.

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